Today has been an extremely busy day. Even what was supposed to be the 'downtime' part of it. I went in to work early so that I would be able to leave early so I could babysit, but the babysitting got cancelled so I stayed late at work instead. Upon my arrival home, my s.o. was getting ready to meet up with a friend of his and that guys girlfriend for drinks and expected me to join them. I had intended on staying at home, eating food that we already owned and doing laundry so we could pack and leisurely prepare for our trip downstate tomorrow. Tigers Game, Concert, Food, Drinks, Hotel, Cab Rides, and all the other shit that costs money when you visit another city. Anyway, after dinner we went shopping for a few provisions and ran into one of my s.o.'s friends that is freshly going into a divorce. Of course we got to hear all of the nasty little details and then got to listen to him rip on the soon to be ex because of her weight. Fantastic. That only took a half an hour. Then to search for reasonably priced Tigers gear - nothing worth the price tag that was on it - disappointing. Then of course, I had to ask my s.o. if he was okay. He has been in the shittiest mood lately. He has not been sleeping and he has been in pain because of his shoulder. But that doesn't warrant him being an ass whenever I ask if he is okay. I think that there are some other issues going on inside his head that he just won't talk to me about. I really wish that someday I will meet a man that can just open up to me and pour his life out in a very matter of fact, frank, blatantly honest kind of way and that I'll be able to do the same and we'll accept each other for what we are and that everything will be right with the universe.
In all of the craziness of the day, I did manage to order cupcakes for tomorrow to surprise my coworker for her birthday, to make sure that I had everything together for this trip, to get in touch with my brother to make sure he had what he needed for meeting up with us for the trip, as well as inputting and managing a million jobs and tasks at work. Tomorrow is going to be a crazy one too, at least up until when I leave work at 11:30. But I have found that I operate best when I have this much going on. I even remembered to take back the movies that we never watched so we wouldn't have to pay late fees for not watching them for a few more days. When I have less stuff going on I am much less productive in my daily life. It's sort of weird how that works.
I've also found that so many of my 'friends' are just my coworkers. My s.o. has so many friends that have sort of become my friends - but he never reaches out to them to set up any kind of get-togethers or anything. He's more of a home-body than I think he wishes he was. I've always been an introvert and I'm totally fine with that. I don't think that you should hang out with acquaintances and wish that you liked them better so that you could really go out and have fun together. Most of the people that my s.o. is friends with are not people that I would want to see all the time. I don't ever feel the need to call people so we can all go hang out somewhere and bullshit about crap. It can be fun to go out for a drink after work with people, but why does it have to turn into some huge bar crawl social event? I would much rather have a few great long conversations with a handful of people throughout the year instead of getting wasted every weekend and make an ass of myself in the process. That is the one thing that I miss the most about college and the friends that I had then. Sitting around and talking about real stuff, stuff that maybe wouldn't change the world, but would alter your perspective on things and bring you a new set of ideas and appreciations for things in you life. Whatever happened to that? I guess that is something that crawls into a hole and dies after you start working 40 hours a week and having some stupid responsibilities. Maybe it has more to do with who you surround yourself with. Who knows.
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