Virtues of Age

I feel that after my post last night, and the creation of my "Projects" page, I have things lined up a lot better and more organized. This makes me feel good. My job has been crazy and I have run my new favorite trail run 10K loop twice this week already. It seems like when I have more shit going on I do better. Like the one semester in college when I took on 15 credits (5 classes), worked two jobs, was the president of photo club and managed to keep up my social life - that was one of the best semesters for my GPA (all A's). I find it interesting that when I am completely overloaded with things I manage my time better and do better quality work.  If I could only keep it up without getting totally burnt out. Now I just need to start working on my projects and bring that into the mix.

I've got some plans for this weekend - but I think that Saturday morning I will be spending wrapping my head around either the red coat that I started more than 2 years ago - or the grey wrap skirt that I have only concocted recently. I know I will wear the skirt before I wear the coat - but the coat is already more than half finished. Maybe I'll do both.

My 30th birthday is looming. 6 days out. I guess it won't be terrible but I'm still trying to think of a way to commemorate it - like another piercing or a cute short haircut. I already got a tattoo this summer after I ran my first half marathon, so I'm going to wait a while before I get another one. It's an interesting thing, a woman turning 30 in this era. I guess it's not really a big deal. There are a lot of people my age that have not really found their place yet. I just want to find my place with art. And I need to start figuring it out now or else it will never happen. I've already waited too long since I was in school. I fucked that all up because of a boy anyway - I could have had a Bachelors of Fine Arts instead of the Bachelors of Applied Arts. But I let someone elses desires dictate the outcome of part of my life. I'm never doing that again.

I guess that is one of the virtues of getting older - figuring out where you stand, what makes you happy, how to achieve the things that you desire and not making the same mistake twice (or at least not more than twice). I like being this age - but I also see those grains of sand slipping through the hourglass and how there is more and more sand in the bottom and less and less in the top. I want to make something of my life - something bigger than me - something that will last - something that will bring people together - and if I can do that in the years I have left then I think I can feel good about waiting this long to make something happen.